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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

I'm feeling extremely upset right now.
What have i done wrong?
My grandmother has drive me to my wits end.
Do i look so much like a rotten granddaughter?
I dont smoke
I dont drink
I dont go home late
I dont have a boyfriend.
All the things that are not duppose to be done by a girl that much are all the thing that i never did.
Must you judge me by the way i behave at home.
I admit that i really dont want to have conver with you that much.
It's not about being rude.
It's about how topicless will it be if i were to talk to you.
If you ask me question, i answer.
But hell you just pissed me.
You were the one who could not hear me and you still dare to call me jahat?
"Die ni memang jahat"
What rights do you have to say that to me?
I did nothing wrong and this is how you judge me?
I dont care if you favour my brother more than me cause it din mattered.
But dont judge me the way i'm not.
It's just not fair.
You ignore or hate me all you can, dont judge me wrongly.
You're telling everyone of your friends that i'm the most rude and unfilial granddaughter you had.
But you're wrong.
I'm not the one doing the bad things but you are.
It's your problem if you're coming home late, not coming home, going out, not cooking or anything.
You don't have to tell me or call me and pretend that you care.
You cant tell me what to do cause what i'm doing is not wrong to anyone but only in your eyes.
I can pretend that i'm fine.
But deep inside, i really prefer that you don't care.
Now after that phrase,my tears kept flowing.
I never want to get emotional when it involves you because i dont feel worth it.
But that phrase really showed me how much you have badmouthed me.
It's not fair.
As long as Tuhan sahaje yang tahu.
I know i did not do anything wrong.
It's up to you to say whatever you want.
I give up.
I'm so sad right now.
I've never been so sad.
My tears kept flowing.
If only i have a listening ear who would console me.
Then again, i aint that lucky.
Going through this and being badmouthed on my own.
I'm hurting like crazy.